A New Beggining

It's been a while since i post a new blog and so many things has happened in my life...
I was down and sad cos for a bad experience and told myself this year would be a better year for me and what life has to offer. I've disappointed many hearts that's close to my including myself by not being truthful and completely honest. I was merely running away from reality and hiding my hurt, burden and grief deep inside me and it made be a worst person of all... By lying your way out of trouble doesn't get you anyway. Instead it temporarily prolonging the matter and generating an even greater problem. That's what i got from trying to bury my lie for too long. A person that i look highly too and respect took 2 step backwards from me. I wanted so much not to let that happen but it did and once again i have to gain that confidence, respect and acknowledgement from him among other people. Getting thru a breakup and trying to push yourself up to gain the confident seems endless to me as again and again, i only manage to create more hurricane in my life. Half way climbing up the mountain, i tripped on a small stone and went tumbling down. i have no one to blame but myself and now i need to get back to my feet and start wasting my time to climb that mountain again. But hey, who says life is easy. If there's any consolation to all this, i have brave the wild storm, stood on my feet again a hurricane and survived the war of hearts. I dare not say i won each battle but i'm still here, hurt or well, i can on rely on myself to mend the broken heart, heal the wound and hold my head high to face my failure and dissapointment in life. I know they will always be there for me but i'm not sure if i can face them heads up.... but i can and will try to face the music for it's to my own benefit and towards producing a better man in me.
"KO", i'm sorry i dissapointed you and not listening to what you say but i will try do what you want to see and achieving the tru potential in me that you already saw in me...
SPeed